Time

At some point you will realize that you have been trying too hard for too long, and you have to let go. A person, job, or whatever it may be, you have to stop doing so much for something that you're not sure is being appreciated. Leave it alone, walk away, and keep going. Letting go does not mean giving up, it means going forward and hoping that the person or thing you have left behind will get their life together and move on. I'm drawing the line of how far I will go, I'm tired of trying, tired of begging for your attention and tired of not going anywhere. I am but a child, and have the desire to roam free and do whatever I want. If I want to go down and travel and be alone, I won't have to answer to anyone, that is what I crave. I gave everything that I had to you and I have no more to give, I have no love for myself and I can not take care of anyone else until I take care of myself. I'm desperate. I love you, and always will, and I hope that this will be a wake up call for you to get yourself together. It needs to happen before we consider moving on together. I will wait for you, I will remain emotionally loyal to you. For how long, I am unsure, but I will be here for you. I need you in my life, Nick, want you so badly, but things need to change. Please.